Friday, September 19, 2008

Who Am I?

I've not been blogging lately because I decided to take things easy for a while. I've decided to take down the Epic Swell site because I have other things I would like to do with that domain so I'm returning here for the time being.

I doubt I will blog often, but I would like to post a few of the things I have been working on. My journey continues as I try to make sense of this world and how my upbringing in the LDS church has shaped my being and my beliefs. I'm currently agnostic and no longer believe in God or the existence of a one true church.

Also, I'd like to shed the old hidden persona and call myself out... my name is Travis Whitney. I was raised in St. George, Utah and currently live in Spanish Fork, Utah.

As for who I am? I guess that's a question that I continually ask myself. I no longer beleive I'm a child of God. I know I'm a father and a husband and its my sole mission to be the best at both. I'm also a brother, son, brother-in-law, etc. and that presents a whole slew of issues as it relates to my dissension from the LDS faith. Who you are within my family is soley based on how well you subscribe to the tennants of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and if you have a current temple recommend. Your worthiness as a human being is based on your church attendance record.

Until now I allowed myself to run my life by expectations of others. I've decided that I can no longer be that person as I need to live life the best I can, based on my own understanding of whats important and whats ideal to me, not others. If that ideal matches up with others, that's great. But if not, I'm not going to appologize for it. I will live my life the best way I know how and I expect others to do the same. I respect the fact that others think their way is the only way, but that doesn't require that I subscribe to their theology.

I don't go to church becuase its not the church I was expected to follow. I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm not sinning. I'm a better person than I used to be. I follow my heart AND my mind. I try to be the best person that I can be and I expect the same from others.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Good to hear from you again, Travis. :)

Let's hope that given time your family will exceed your expectations.

Travis Whitney said...

Thanks Jonathan. I've got drama right now with one of my brothers. He deduced my situation and has been bombarding me with emails about praying and doing what I know is right and making assumptions about how I'm sinning and screwing up my life. Its all fun and games until the gloves come off. I've responded with appreciation for his opinion and that I love him, but he won't leave it alone. Hopefully he'll settle down soon.